Laura Simons, 18
Dear Curious Soul Searchers— That’s what we all are, aren’t we? I call myself a New Ager, for it’s so complex and intertwined with spirituality and science, it’s the only way I can really explain that my belief is actually sane. I feel I’ve known all my life of the wondrous powers of the universe, energy, and the power of love. It all makes sense now. I’ve come a long way, and still have quite a lifetime to go.
Growing up, my life was never raised with religion. My Mom is a wise and spiritual being like me, and she was all I had growing up. She always exposed me to any door I wished to open. But as a kid, I really didn’t give a damn. At the time, I may have not realized it, but her spiritual lifestyle was quite an influence on me and who I am today.
I became exposed to more people in my life, and I saw more religion wherever I went. Most of my friends were Catholic, for the majority of my neighborhood is Hispanic, so not many people I could relate to in the area of God. At the age of 13, confusion hit, and the questions rang up. What am I? Why am I here? Where am I going? It really brought me down to find I had no idea, and everyone else did. I couldn’t stand being undefined, not being reassured of my purpose in the world, just floating around, and alone.
I began to look into everything, from Satanism, Catholicism, Judaism, and Christianity, Hinduism, Buddhism and Wiccan. None were satisfying, it was like somewhere inside myself I had my own theory of what life was all about, but I was only looking for the title.
At age 14, I began my drug trip stage, a real psychedelic stage for me. With that, I took flight on the great journey of self-discovery. All that blowing trees really expanded my mind. I saw the world in a whole new way, one full of life and beauty so strong I could feel it. I’d close my eyes and see it. Life was glowing. The force was strong with me, and there was nothing not to love.
But not long after, I grew addicted to narcotics, and for 2 years I lost myself, my mind, and my purpose of being. Everything I once was, drained. I was being dragged down a spiral of unhappiness and hopelessness. I surrounded myself with a whole new crowd filled with negativity, prejudice and hatred toward others. I had no ability to feel anymore, the glow and beauty in life was gone.
It sounds crazy why anyone would want to go down a path of self-destruction, but I did. I feel it was an experience I had to take for my next step to my unlimited knowledge. I find nothing regrettable. It was a wonderful experience, because without the past, the experience today would be for shit. I embrace it, along with everything else I cross paths with. I feel blessed, saved. The love of others saved me.
I feel that anything in this world can be saved with love, and with that ability we have that makes us all god, all infinite, all connected. This nothing gave me the hope that nothing is hopeless, and I’m not alone after all.
The New Age is simply sublime, and that’s what I feel it’s all about.
A Poem:
There are many others that can relate to me
Who fell like something in their life is missing
In my life I feel lost, and my world starts to lose meaning
I become depressed and alone, and I try hiding my feelings
I feel like I'm on a treadmill, going nowhere, like I'm not really living
My situation I created by all the choices I make
But if I chose it any differently, it would have made me fake
So I can't regret it, I can only learn from the paths I take
I know what I need to do, what habits I should break
Sometimes it's hard to let go, I'm afraid I'll lose control
I get so caught up in myself, I lose touch with my soul
I forget how to listen, quiet my mind and meditate
I forget how to see, look at the beauty in life and appreciate
I forget how to live, with so many infinite possibility I can create
Reality is what I choose to believe, this power I underestimate
Remember... there are no limits in life to what you can do
Live your life fully and to yourself be true
Love everything because it's also a part of you
Be happy, life can be beautiful if you want it to
New Age is hope that everyone can live this way
and we can all have a future filled with brighter days
Past traditions and religions no longer setting our ways
The fears we let separate us all went away
New Age is the dream we hope our future can be
Mankind finds peace, living with truth to see them free
And our differences can become one, working together to create harmony
New Age is the key to my internal happiness and prosperity.
Thank you,
Laura Simons.
